I am finding myself feeling sad lately. I have a lot of mixed emotions about a few things going on or things that have already gone on. Mostly it is all out of my control anyway so I should not let it bother me and just forget about it. BUT I CAN NOT.. It is just who I am. I try to be a good person. To be there for my siblings. I try to be a good friend. But I can only bend over backwards so far before I fall on my ass.