Saturday, June 18, 2011

missing you

Happy Father's Day Dad.

I have so much I want to talk to you about. They say you feel better with time, as of now I can't believe that. Each day goes on and each day my heart is full of sorrow. It is harder then anything imaginable.

I am so lucky to have had the six years you lived with us. That time had brought us closer. I wouldn't trade that time for anything. Like I told you many times you are like a big teddy bear with an attitude! I miss the stories, I miss you bossing us around, I miss you. period. 

The days I struggle the most with are the days I just cant get the last month out of my mind. Them days I find myself uncontrollably crying on my way to work, in the bathroom, and the tears just come and I can't stop them. I feel I will never be OK with what happened and how it happened.  One day I hope to accept what is.... as it is. We can't change it but I would if I could. I feel you close often. Sometimes I smell you in a room. I know you are here watching over us. And probably pretending to smack us in the back of the head for doing something our way and not yours.

I didn't think I would be celebrating this day  without you for a long time. You were to young to go. I am lost without you. You are a great dad. You are a great PaPa to Abigail.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011


So I have been slacking some on updating the blog....
We have been extremly busy at our house. I started back to work full time and it is a good thing because we will have more money and health insurance BUT it has also been a HUGE adjustment. Not only for Abigail but for me also.  I never wanted to be a mom that had to work. I know in the real world most mom's have to work I always just hoped we would survive enough for me to be one of those lucky mom's. I do consider myself lucky enough to be able to stay home her first year and a half and the other year and a half to only have to work a few days a week. Life goes on.....
She is really enjoying her school though and has made many friends. So that is a plus!

Anyways..... A few weeks ago we stayed in Park City for the weekend and Abiagil enjoyed having her friend Cole spend the night and going to ride Thomas The Train in Heber. Very fun but definatly not worth the $18 per ticket for a 25 minute ride! Here a a few pictures of her weekend adventure.

 It snowed twice while we were there and we got to see Deer.
 They were watching "UP" cuddling on the couch.

These two are so cute together. They shared a blanket  and even held hands while wating the movie.


Just cuz...

BIG Helper!

 Our five newest editions have grown up so pretty!
 Miss Sassy standing watch over her flock...